I’m so fucking tired of being second best. Yeah sure you can hang out with other girls, “I don’t have a problem with it”. Yeah sure you can go watch scary movies with them even though you never wanted to watch a scary movie with me (and it was the same fucking scary movie that I begged you to go watch with me), “I don’t have a problem with it”. Yeah sure you can go swimming with them in their community pool even though you never wanted to go swimming with me in ours because it was “too dirty”, “I don’t have a problem with it”. Yeah sure post stuff on their walls even though you never ever posted anything on my wall (and I know this was just a movie trailer but idgaf at this point), “I don’t have a problem with it”. BUT I DO HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM WITH IT! Is that not clear to you, after three weeks of me hinting at how much it bothers me that you’re always hanging out with other girls (especially that one specific girl), do you still not understand that it bothers the hell out of me?
Yeah sure, nowwww it’s not as big of a deal as it was before to me, now she’s my friend and I understand that she’s an extremely nice person, but I’ve been holding all of it inside the whole time and seeing that insignificant wall post just made me explode. Especially when I was like “Sooooooo can you post something on my wall too :3” and you said “No cuz I don’t feel like it” like WTF…. You don’t feel like posting a little insignificant post on my wall, but you can take the time to post something on hers? Thanks.
I know that it may probably seem like I’m being a whiny little bitch for noooo reason, but I’ve had it up to here. Can I not go one fucking day without you saying her name or seeing a conversation you guys had. Or hearing from my friends that they saw you at the mall together?
Oh my god, I need to stop but I just can’t. Like everything I’ve been thinking for the past 3 weeks is being let out and I honestly feel a little better. Ughhhh. I wish that he didn’t creep on my tumblr and read everything I write…but I’m seriously pissed right now….too many things building up then finally exploding. Like a snowball effect.
Well I actually feel a lot better now :) hopefully I don’t get bitched at for writing it haha
Tara tumblr <3